Day 1

Day 1

Inspiration: 

33 Days to Morning Glory, Michael Gaitley

Dynamic Catholic, Matthew Kelly

My sons

I had the privilege of putting my son down for his nap on this very cold Friday. School is canceled and children are safe inside warm homes. I watched Paulie as he drifted off to sleep. I laid my head at the foot of the bed by his feet. He reached out for my hand. He placed my hand on his foot to rub it, then on his thigh, his face, and back to his foot. I gently stroked and massaged each place to where he guided my hand, knowing that it brought him comfort. I pretend too that I am sleeping, but every once in awhile I sneak a peek at him and he has this little secret smile on his face. His eyes are blinking to sleep. I sense he is looking at angels above him, or God himself is there, or even Mary is playing peek a boo. I’ve always thought that babies can still see the angels and heavenly things. I love watching him drift off so happily. My heart is flooded with love.

This is how God feels (and so much more) when we lay our head down at night. He loves to adore us. If we point out where we need it, he is there gently massaging the areas of our day that brought us anxiety, fear, or sadness. He is flooded with joy when he sees we are full of peace. 

How often do I forget that as my loving parent, God is adoring me and wanting to be near to me? When he looks upon my face, what does he see? 

Is my face glowing? Are my thoughts on how God is with me. Am I remembering how much he loves me and is pleased with me even in the areas I have fallen short of others or my own expectations? 

Or, is my face distorted from the day? Have I allowed myself to be influenced by others who are negative or who are distant from the Lord’s purpose? Am I worried about pleasing them or what they think of me? 

Does God look upon a child who is grateful? Or am I being self absorbed? Do my thoughts revolve around what didn’t go my way? Or, are my thoughts focused on how blessed I am.

When I lay my head down at night am I distracted by my phone, my work, my plans? Or, am I dreaming of God’s plans for me?

Lord, help me to be on fire for you. Help me to have a deeper desire to be on fire. Protect me from all of the influences that separate me from your loving and adoring gaze. Amen.