Today I could feel the consecration at work in all of the challenges of the day. When I got to school early to begin the long procrastinated iChat process, the internet was out. I did not get flustered. I avoided "feeling sorry for myself" as I tried to address the problem myself on a ladder in the boiler room. By 8:20 it had worked itself out.
At night, the baby was up every hour. I asked Mary to take over me - to help me avoid a sense of helplessness and grief. I was compelled to talk to the baby to get me through my own fear of being fatigued. "I know how I feel after a long night like this and I'm a grown up. You poor thing. Mama's here for you." He had horrible gas, at times it would relieve itself and I would comfort him. Talking to the baby and thinking about him and NOT me changed everything. Thank you Mary.
During observations, I looked at the teaching and learning going on in the school through the eyes of Mary. She is so pleased with the work and discipleship of all at St. Mary's.
When the fire inspection snafoo occurred at the end of the day, Mary was there holding my hand. Again, instead of getting overwhelmed, I felt in command of the situation while trusting in God's will for all.
It was a long night of meetings, but Mary gave me reprieve as I snuck home for exactly 15 minutes with my husband setting a 7 minute timer to nurse the baby on each breast. He is amazing. He saw my needs and knew my limits. She also blessed me "rich" minutes with Paulie during his night time routine which fed my soul.
Through all of this, I tried to respond with virtue and when I did so successfully, I reminded myself of the little peasant who have the apple the the queen and she placed it on a gorgeous gold plate before giving it to the King, making it worthy.
My sacrifices are small Lord, but you have given them to me. Make me worthy to one day be in Your presence in heaven.
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